Archana shivered with delight. There, in her hand, was a little, outrageously expensive glass of Tequila. Her very first. She grinned with uncontrolled excitement.

‘It doesn’t look much different from water,’ she thought, ‘or maybe lime juice?’ She seriously wondered why it was this expensive. But she pushed those thoughts away. It was her 19th birthday, and she would try this, no matter what.

She stared at the glass. Visions of men blabbering away in drunken glory loomed into view. Of men stumbling, unable to walk, as she had seen in movies. Of her classmates puking, like she had seen once in the hostel. And finally, of her parents, especially her mother’s horrified expression if only she came to know. But of course, she wouldn’t.

All the guys in the table had got what they wanted, and they all looked around. Kar looked at her, rubbing his hands in glee, and then picked up his glass, and said ‘To Archana’s health!’

‘Yo!’ screamed some.

‘Cheers,’ screamed others.

Archana smiled and put her glass down.

‘Maybe I shouldn’t do this?’ she asked herself.

‘Naah, go on,’ she told herself again.

She gingerly looked at the glass again.

‘To me,’ she told herself silently.

It was then she noticed the tiny thing in the glass. Something like the capillary tube in the chemistry lab. She picked it up and casually threw it out.

She then lifted the glass and saw how much of Tequila it held. Very, very less.

She put the glass to her mouth and gulped in one go.

She coughed and spat it out. Her friends looked at her.

‘Dear, dear, go slow!’ said Kar. The other guys bellowed with laughter.Archana, visibly shaken, managed a weak smile.

She looked at the glass again. It was almost empty. And she didn’t even know how it tasted!

Only a few drops left.

She opened her mouth again and shook the last few drops into her mouth, like she had just drunk something she absolutely relished.

She then licked her lips. No, not because it was tasty. It just didn’t really taste like anything to her. Almost tasteless, maybe slightly flavoured. Nothing special. But it burned her throat. Or maybe her mind was just making it up? Well, she really didn’t know why millions of people in the world went crazy over such a thing, tasteless, burning.

She stared blankly around as the guys finished up theirs. Buggers, most of them were ordering for more and more.

Suddenly, a fear gripped her. What if she were to puke too? And blabber incoherent things? Let out deep secrets? She shuddered, and announced ‘Let’s go, guys.’

The guys jeered. As expected. But they agreed. The nice guys, who wouldn’t want to offend her. In reality, nice guys who secretly feared Archana might just suddenly burst into tears in a fit of drunken crying if they didn’t leave immediately.

They got up, and Vik crashed to the ground. The other guys cheered as he staggered to his feet and got up.

Archana’s fears hit their peak (again). She started to walk, wanting to get to her room and to bed at the earliest.

‘Kar,’ she mumbled weakly, ‘what if I faint on the way?’

‘Don’t worry, we’ll take you to your room,’ he replied. The ever-steady Kar. ‘He isn’t even high,’ Archana thought, ‘and he had six drinks!’ And tripped.

Two guys rushed and pulled her up. Kar and Ray held her two arms and walked.

Archana, though ashamed, just limped on.

After what seemed an eternity, the guys opened her hostel room, and dropped her on the bed and left, throwing her purse on the chair. Archana curled up in bed, and pulled her covers over herself.

‘Get up, Aa-arch, you’re in the way!’ said some voice.

Archana looked up, dazed. It was Christie, the Mexican girl living in the next room. Archana was sleeping in the corridor, and three other people were watching her from two doors away.

She didn’t bother to ask how she got there. She quickly got up and rushed into her room.

All for a teeny, tiny glass of some tasteless, burning drink. Not worth it, she thought.

She went to the canteen after a shower. The guys were there.

‘Arch, all right?’ asked Kar cheerily.

‘Of course,’ Archana replied, not a bit of the embarrassment she had faced some time back apparent in her face or tone.

‘Well, now that you’re into it too, we were just thinking,’ he said, taking a bottle out of a DFS Galleria bag. Absolut. It looked like a bottle filled with clear, sparkling water.

He handed over the bottle to her. She opened it gingerly and sniffed.

She sneezed and threw the lid over. Kar got tensed and grabbed the bottle from her.

‘I, err, got to go,’ she said and awkwardly rushed out.

No more, she promised herself, and sneezed again. No more.

.. when I have to write a goodbye post to the last year!!
So, here comes to a close, all-important year 3, the year I began my 20 somethings, the year where I truly started earning and spent a whole semester paying for my expenses myself (and darn proud of it too!), when I realised I can be quite meticulous and detail-oriented too, and well, so on and so forth.
This year's seen a fair mix of good and worst times, times when I went to the brink of losing my prized possession - my optimism, but still managed to hang on a thread, which finally paid off! Getting an internship after two rejections from my dream jobs and then an interview with a Public Relations company (a field I totally disliked!) which finally took me in, took quite a toll on me. But looks like it was all for good - not only did i have an amazing time with my internship company, I got to know one of the agencies that didn't take me in was erm, torturing its poor interns. I scathed through, scarred, but guess I've emerged a little more resistant! I had great fun working with WS, despite the long hours, pissing-off requests from clients (that nearly convinced Public Relations is not for me!), slogging, slogging and even more slogging. The team, despite its sometimes-seemingly-inconsiderate requests (which I later got to sympathize with), was just delightful to work with. The icing on the cake was the MD of the company telling the whole office yesterday, during the Interns' farewell lunch, that he got to know talking to our client that this guy was pleased with my work, and knew me! (Ok,ok, it's quite a big deal for a client to know a lowly PR intern, just so you know!) Didn't someone say everything happens for a reason? :)
This was the year when my social circle in my univ expanded considerably, and with all the internship money coming in this sem, I went out quite a bit. The trip to Malaysia tops the list, and not to forget the food cooking sessions (mostly disasters?) and food-ordering-gumbala-eating sessions which were great fun! It was during this year I took a few important resolutions, after what seemed some tough times with people, almost leading to cynicism - lower your bloody expectations of everything! It not just makes life so much more easier to handle, it keeps you so much more happier, because you don't get disappointed! It's been working quite well, I say! Another one was to not complain - erm, ok, reduce it a bit, to be realistic! :D (Just so you don't go, 'After six months of posts which only moan, complain and bitch, she finally realized' :P )
Hmm, well, whatever; I've definitely become very easygoing on a lot of things, and my temper's hardly around compared to what it was before I came to Singapore - three cheers to that! I was also thrilled when my team mates said they loved my 'happy' outlook to everything - so hey, I am quite chirpy, yeah? :D
Anyway, here I am, 8 hours 15 mins away from my flight to heaven - HOME!!! Home per say is still quite a number of days away, but it's just 5 days before I can meet my mum and have the die-for rasam. Missed India too much this year. Going home once a year, totally is awful, so I'm never going to do it again! Adios, Singapore. Chennai, here I come! Madras-in raani pola vaaren!

At a time when I’m already swamped with work, a colleague comes and says, ‘Can I ask you a favour?’

Not another of these, I groan. Within, of course.

I pull my earphones off my ears and smile. ‘Sure, what can I do?’

I periodically nod, and diligently take notes to make sure I don’t forget anything.

Why me, and why today, I wonder. I had been quite jobless the last 3 days at work. Today, I had planned to work on my university research project. And I’m piled with work.

Why not the new intern, I wonder. I had started doing all this work within days of starting the internship, and she’s already been here quite a while. And poor thing, is quite jobless as well. Why not her?

And I put my earphones back on, and ‘Alaipayuthey kanna’ plays.

‘Idhu thagumo, idhu muraiyo, idhu dharmam thaano,’ the song goes.

I burst out laughing, much to the surprise of the others in my cubicle.

As I started out on the new work, juggling it with the old, I know, I’ll survive as long as I manage to laugh for the silliest things on planet earth.

11 more working days.

words and music still keep you together!
In a whirlwind of a month, which saw happy, delightful, depressing, painful times, some things - very few things - didn't change!
An amazing trip to an island beach in Malaysia, the beach, the swing (oh, how much I miss the damn thing!!) hard and lovely moments at work, books, my dormant novel slowly coming to life in bits and pieces, surprises - great and nasty ones, bursts of enthusiasm, rage, brooding, angry resolutions, excessive need to be by myself, not to forget the 3 days of limping after the snorkeling (mis)adventure in Malaysia when I stubbornly refused to allow my weakness to overpower me - whoa, was all April was about.
I'm delighted to announce that in another month and 2 days, yours truly will leave this freakin' place to come to India for a good month and a half - and will land in Chennai! However short the stay in Chennai might be, I can't wait to go, soak in the warmth of the city, its people, its crowd, its dirty streets, and most importantly, the life, the life's spice. 25 more working days, they'll pass. They'll pass. It's time for me to meet sane people and get sane again! Counting the days, counting 'em...
... here I am, with a post.
Warning: Moaning, bitching and possible worse stuff ahead. Really need to chill off!

So in that one month, so much has happened! I've been evaluated by my supervisor at work, been evaluated to pitching stories to media and asking them to cover something, with 2 more people not in the working team anymore, more work on my plate, and FINALLY, a new phone!!! Say hi to my brand new flashy Nokia 6233 Music Edition!! It's white.. that's the only colour they have :(
Anyway, after I-don't-know-how-many months of planning and even deciding who gets which song for their ringtone, the phone is here! And guess what, it's been a week and I haven't got the bloody time to upload songs or ringtones to the phone! Ugh, I totally hate this! Not only does working suck, it sucks even more to come back and do a research project or start researching for your stupid Final Year Project. And to top it all, imagine having a Prof for your supervisor who is as unsteady as a cat on the wall - totally! I have no friggin' clue which side he'll jump and what he'll ask me to do next! Ever since I was given the opportunity to do the project and I chose to do his, I've been in trouble. Trust me, in a span on 6 months, a research project changing over 6 times isn't too nice.
While it's fun to get the measly pay check every last day of the month, it's seriously surprising how it vanishes before you realise you can spend it, and viola! your bank account has the same amount of money it had before you submitted the check. Don't even talk about 'spending my hard-earned money', and saving for the next sem, forget it. Working is expensive, man. As much as I hate it, I have to take care of what clothes I wear, which pair of shoes to go with which bag and all this shit. It especially sucks when you have older ladies among you who you think dress much better while you struggle to sit gracefully in a knee-length stupid black skirt, and of course, not to mention the shoes.
I've been watching a hell lot of movies, though, and that's extremely enjoyable. Watched 'The Namesake' yesterday. Brilliant adaptation from the book, I'd say. And amazing performances by all in the movie! I'm seriously beginning to like Kal Penn (Ok, the only other movie I've seen him in is 'Harold and Kumar..' ) Yeah, so judging by these two movies and the amazing change in the roles he's played in both, he seems to be a good actor! :D Wondering when I'll get to watch Provoked and of course, Sivaji. Can't wait for Sivaji. I seriously want to go watch a Rajni movie in the cinema and whistle and loudly clap and cheer.
On those auspicious days when I get to log on to Orkut and I see what a number of you guys have been up to, I feel totally sad. I have no idea what most of you are doing, and this is just so bad! Of course, I wasn't around that much to say even last sem, but at least that was better! Anyways, I'm coming HOME... SOON! Will most probably leave the night my internship ends.. and I will land in India in Chennai.. Woohooooo!!! Chennai, look out for me.. Gosh, will be there after a year ... so many things would've changed? I can't wait!!!
just to wish all a Happy Women's Day!!
Ladies, today's just for us to remember we're one of God's most precious creations.. and guys, don't stop with treating us nice for just today :D respect us everyday!!
Why is the human mind so complicated?
Why do we care too much about something unnecessary?
Why do we expect so much out of people?
Why does it take a lot to keep some people happy?
Why should we try to please people?
Who are others to judge me?
Don't the less complicated people make it great in life?

Questions, questions. If only I knew the answers! If only things (and people) around were much simpler to crack and decode!
But ah, what, then, would be the challenge in life?