After long...

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... I'm back.
After weeks of back-breaking work, tension, project meetings, interviews, lows more than highs, confidence-threatening situations, I can't say I've come out unscathed. Life is tough! Glad as I am that I'm able to take it all in pretty well, I wish I could go a step higher and be calmer, and not think of unnecessary things and situations. I find myself worrying sick sometimes, until I just shake myself up and say that when some things aren't in your hands, there's no point worrying yourself over them.

Unceremonious rants with my friends and parents when I contradict myself to the greatest extents possible ('I'm scared I'll be disappointed, but I know there's no point in being scared that I'll be disappointed; it's not in my hands, but yeah, it is in my hands considering I should try to not to let this affect me' - that's just a sample!) just show how foggy my mind is at the moment. Well, at the end of such monologues I just end up laughing wondering how I could get this crazy!

I keep thinking of all that I told my interviewer - that I'm optimistic, and never let difficulties bog me down - and wow, how much this helps in putting me back on track! At the end of it all, hope wins. As I wait with bated breath for something that could make or mar my confidence, I also desperately try by the side to make sure whatever happens, I don't lose hope or the trust in myself. After all, who knows me more than I do; somebody's judgment should have no effect!

I know, again, it's one of those senseless posts - I just wanted to vent everything running in my mind right now. I should be feeling much better by the end of this week, or by the end of the day, rather. Let's see what future holds in store for me. After all, everything happens for a reason - and the reason will be good!

P.S.: Thanks all, for still seeing what I'm up to..this is the longest ever break I've taken from blogging, and I can see what it's done to me - I missed it dearly!

12 comments:

Anupama Viswanathan said...

:).Don't worry dear. It's just a matter of time before things jump back to normalcy. So, patience is the key! Meanwhile, did I tell you I am happy to see a new post out here? Been really long and hope to see you spinning more stories, really soon! :) Love, Akka! :)

Kay said...

Welcome Back.

praphul said...

'Hope is a good thing' teaches Shawshank Redemption.

I remember this instance, when my friend said that he doesnot want to know his future, because he wants to enjoy the ride of life - every milestone and bump too.

iCitizen said...

I think you should take a well deserved break.

Welcome back. We also missed you more than you missed blogging.

- The international Citizen

Ramya said...

Now that its out of your system after ranting, sit back and enjoy the ride ! Afterall, life would be very bland without such experiences!

the woman said...

All the best in whatever you do vani.

Glad to see you back here.

kausikram krishnasayee said...

meendum nal varuga!!

Bhargavi sekhar said...

Good to see u here.enjoy gal!:)

Aravind said...

hey.... good to see u back here!!
Now that u are back, be more regular!:P

hope things are fine... all the best!

Sandhya Ramachandran said...

a 'random' post alright! ;)

he he...

Don't let things worry you... sucess is yours! :) And gurl rememebr that no matter what happens in life to us, we're to find out our own happiness even in the most trying of situations!

"Being happ doesn't mena everything's perfect... It just means you've decided to see everything beyond the imperfections"

Life's full of flaws and trials and hardships... we just need to keep faith- in ourselves and God and plow on...

Your goldmine's just about to be hit! ;)

Take care... :)

Nanyaar? said...

Glad your back

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