After long...

... I'm back.
After weeks of back-breaking work, tension, project meetings, interviews, lows more than highs, confidence-threatening situations, I can't say I've come out unscathed. Life is tough! Glad as I am that I'm able to take it all in pretty well, I wish I could go a step higher and be calmer, and not think of unnecessary things and situations. I find myself worrying sick sometimes, until I just shake myself up and say that when some things aren't in your hands, there's no point worrying yourself over them.

Unceremonious rants with my friends and parents when I contradict myself to the greatest extents possible ('I'm scared I'll be disappointed, but I know there's no point in being scared that I'll be disappointed; it's not in my hands, but yeah, it is in my hands considering I should try to not to let this affect me' - that's just a sample!) just show how foggy my mind is at the moment. Well, at the end of such monologues I just end up laughing wondering how I could get this crazy!

I keep thinking of all that I told my interviewer - that I'm optimistic, and never let difficulties bog me down - and wow, how much this helps in putting me back on track! At the end of it all, hope wins. As I wait with bated breath for something that could make or mar my confidence, I also desperately try by the side to make sure whatever happens, I don't lose hope or the trust in myself. After all, who knows me more than I do; somebody's judgment should have no effect!

I know, again, it's one of those senseless posts - I just wanted to vent everything running in my mind right now. I should be feeling much better by the end of this week, or by the end of the day, rather. Let's see what future holds in store for me. After all, everything happens for a reason - and the reason will be good!

P.S.: Thanks all, for still seeing what I'm up to..this is the longest ever break I've taken from blogging, and I can see what it's done to me - I missed it dearly!